RIP ENM

Tuesday 12 April 2011 at 3 PM, my mobile rang, somebody there asked me,"Do you know the news about EN?" My heart beat so hard, I've prepared myself for the worst as I know, she was very sick. Then the lady told me cry that EN passed away that morning at 11.13 AM. Dear God, I don't know how to react but I cried as soon as I hang up the phone, she was so young, she just celebrated her 38th birthday last Saturday.

But now, it's just a memory....

I knew she was attending lung cancer since the beginning of 2010 that even the doctor said she was only given 2 years. But she was always cheerful even if the cells are damaged, she was a very brave girl, she wanted to survive for her daughter, she wanted to do lots of projects, sewing workshop, photography or handicraft business. I told her everything can be done, but you must recover first, do not let yourself drown in your sickness. Anyway I know, I don't need to say this to her, she's full of life, she can manager herself.

One day she told me that she will move out from the village she stayed with her husband, she said she wanted to look for better life under the sun in Montpellier, south of France. So I've decided to come and see her, drove my small Smart car 140 km return. She looked so happy, look great, except that from time to time she asked to excuse herself to get the oxygen from the big tank. I said to myself, I won't regret coming this way to see her, maybe I will see her for the last time...., riwa

Then from time to time, I check on facebook, it's been a couple of months she was inactive. So I decided to asked her news last month, that she said she was in nursing house after chemotherapy. She was complaining having stomach pain & tired.

The last time I sent her message was on her birthday, 8th April 2011, she complained of having really tired, need massage, she was telling me the news about her husband's job and told me her willingness to return to Indonesia on September and even asking me to come with her, so that I can help taking care of her 2 and half year daughter during the trip. The last sms she sent me saying "Insya Allah, september for sure I'll return home, well... I'm very tired, I want to go to sleep now" it was 10th April 2011 at 4PM

Good bye now my dear friend, the day I learnt that you left I was crying a lot, now I want to salute you and saying goodbye with a smile on my face, thinking about your braveheart, beautiful face & your high spirit, assuring myself that you suffer no more and you are now in the hands of God....